I know about God, and to an extent I have grown to know God, but there remains in me this burning desire to know Him even deeper. The more time I spend sitting quietly with Him the stronger this passion grows, and the more I am aware of the thirst that accompanies it, likewise, the more time I spend searching this world, my heart, and religion itself, the smaller the flame within me dies down to…I am used to getting things instantly, or at least swiftly. I live now, in 2011, where I can speak a dinner code into a microphone and pick up the contents of my order in a window 3 minutes later. I walk along bookshelves of authors who all claim to have found the fastest method to the best results….The concept of waiting, or resting, or being still is not only foreign but can seem almost terrifying. Stopping, like seriously just stopping, as in no movement? AHHHHH! There are things to do though, and people to see, and children starving in Africa for Pete’s sake, I can’t just stop, BUT stopping, waiting, resting, and being still are exactly what God calls me to do, and its in this act of meditating or contemplating who God is and what He’s done that I find not only the energy to serve God, but also the wisdom to know His plans for me and how to do them well….as oppose to just being busy trying to do everything and really accomplishing nothing! The hard reality that goes against everything in my culture, and even in my impatient desires, is that meditation and contemplation takes time, and regardless of my lame excuses its time I DO HAVE!
